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Difficult teen girl...I feel caught in the middle with family...

Hello everyone! 

This is my first time posting here. I have 2 kids, my younger one (18) has had pretty major struggles in the past with depression, anxiety, and 2 suicide attempts last year. I feel that she has come a long way and am proud of the progress she is making. Last week, I took her to visit my family that lives a few hours away. She behaved ok for the most part, however at one point her and I got into an argument that eventually resolved itself. My mother went behind my back to let her know that she does not like the 'drama' that my daughter brings everytime we visit. I feel caught in this crazy family dynamic where my daughter is now made out to be the black sheep of the family. Basically, in my family, conflict is frowned upon, and portraying a 'perfect' life is rewarded. I feel frustrated as well with my daughter and what can be perceived as a rude or abrasive way about her. However, I also see her as someone who has struggles and quite possibly a borderline personality disorder or something else. I am getting her help, she is on meds, and I am feeling very alone and frightened as I am a single mom. Her father 'says' he loves her etc, however makes very little time for her. I worry that I am not coming down hard enough on her and excusing her bad behaviour (my family believes this to be true) however it is an extremely difficult thing to parent an older child with mental health issues. I did say to my mother that I am doing my very best, that my ex-husband created an extremely challenging family dynamic after we separated 7 years ago by undermining me, painting me as the villain who caused the break of the family, and then more or less abandoning his kids. I work full time and feel overwhelmed alot of the time. I told my mother as much, I feel like it fell on deaf ears though. I am not feeling like going back to visit my family with my daughter as I hate the way she is treated. I also worry that I am enabling her and allowing her to run the show. Sorry for the long post. I am very confused at the moment. Does anyone else feel 'stuck' in a similiar situation where it is hard to figure out who is wrong, who is right?

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Re: Difficult teen girl...I feel caught in the middle with family...

Hi @canadianmum - first of all a massive welcome to our forum and community. So pleased you've found us. 

 

I am so sorry to hear about your daughter and her difficulties over the last year with her mental well being -that must have been so painful for you both -  but great to hear that she is making so much progress. Sounds like you've been an incredible support for her Heart

 

That's such a tough one with your mum and family wanting things to be 'perfect' rather than talking openly about the struggles and pain we all know exist in every family. 

As you've said being a parent to a teen with mental illness is extremely difficult to say the least and you're doing an amazing job as being her support and her advocate in a situation where she is mistreated by other family members. 

Make sure you have some support for yourself as well - is there anyone you can talk to or get support from at the moment? 


Knowing what or who's right is something that comes up a lot on this forum, and I'm sure some of the other members can jump in and give some you some support  on this - @taokat , @Sister , @Moggy3kids 

 

But the important thing is that you're listening to your daughter's needs, supporting her as best you know,  speaking to professionals, and as you've said, she is making positive progress.  Heart

 


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Re: Difficult teen girl...I feel caught in the middle with family...

Hi there @canadianmum

It certainly is a hard journey parenting teens , let alone those that present with mental health issues. I think the hardest part for us as mums is taking a step back and accepting that none of what is happening is our fault. It sounds like you are doing all the right things as far as accessing support for your daughter , however I agree with @gina-Ro in that you also need to access support for you . It sounds as though the family dynamic is causing you more anxiety than positivity at the moment and it is perfectly okay to remove yourself from those situations if that is what is needed for the best self care for you and your daughter. I also think we tend to walk on eggshells a lot of the time with our teens that are struggling with mental health as we are afraid of tipping them over, yet they still need to know we care about them enough to put in the same limits as we would if they were well. Let her know its ok to feel angry and sad yet it hurts you when she lashes out. You are doing an amazing job, I could not even fathom doing it as a single mum. 

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Re: Difficult teen girl...I feel caught in the middle with family...

Hello Gina Ro and thank you for the welcome! 

I am getting support from a wonderful counsellor who helps me to process all this stress, complexity, and grief. I also have a loving fiance, he is my sounding board and also has a child with mental health issues.  For me right now the hardest part is the rumination - I feel anger both at my daughter and my mother. They are very similar in that they feel completely free to speak their mind and I am often hurt at what they say to me in a critical way. The difference is of course, my daughter is my responsibility and she is still only 18 so I am compelled to try to take her side. I have decided, in light of this, to bow out of an upcoming family get together and instead of making excuses I will be completely honest with my mother and family and say that it is too stressful for me to attend. I am already have heart palpitations at the thought of speaking my mind and doing something that could be perceived as selfish. But, at the same time, I am cognizant of the fact that most of my major issues and stumbling blocks in my life at this moment have come from an overwhelming desire to please my mother and family, to not 'bite the hand that feeds you' as I have been told over and over, and to refrain from rocking the boat. 

Thanks for listening! Have a wonderful day!

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Re: Difficult teen girl...I feel caught in the middle with family...

Hi @canadianmum,

 

I'm glad to hear that you are seeking support for yourself and that your fiance is so understanding and supportive. 

 

It sounds very painful to be on the receiving end of a lot of your family's anger/frustration. @Moggy3kids makes a good point about ensuring that the pain you are experiencing when your offloaded onto in acknowledged and heard too. I can hear how difficult things have been for you and it sounds like you are doing so much to support your daughter Heart It's great that you have found these forums and have a safe space to share the anger and pain here with people who understand and can relateHeart

 

It takes so much courage to speak your mind to your family and be honest about your reasons for not attending the next function. 

 

Have you got anything planned for some self care/me time today?

 

 

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