Hi Bre-ro thank you. I am not ok but I am not at that point I was yesterday. I have found the one thing to stop me from taking that step. I just need to get through today and I am seeing my daughters psychologist with her today. Thank you for reaching out because at the moment that is what I need. i will try to find someone to talk to as well. I just wanted you to know that I am still here and will not do anything stupid. It was just really bad day yesterday and I am struggling today as well with a great deal of sadness. thank you .
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Hi I am new to this site and I am glad it is here. My daughter's psychologist recommended it. My daughter is 13, she was bullied at school before lockdown and then went COVID hit and we were forced on to online learning, she retreated into herself over time.
After weeks of doing everything we can to help her feel comfortable, working with the school on a plan to ease her back in with lots of concessions made, a few setbacks last week, she agreed to try again yesterday and for 2 and a half hours only. After I dropped her off, and waited for a bit to make sure she would be ok, and she had a teacher supporting her, she ran away from school. They had to send someone out in a car to look for her. Then she rang me and I went to pick her up. I wasn't angry. I was relieved she was safe and with me. We talked and talked and she knows we are there for her.But I'm broken.
I'm so sad and I can not stop feeling its way. I really thought maybe I should just walk into the ocean and just go. I feel like an absolute failure that I haven't been able to help her. I know there are so many people out there hurting. Today is just a day where I cannot find anything at all to keep me going. I don't expect answers I just want to know there are other people out here who know that this is like and I can be honest about how I feel . Because I have to keep it in I cant distress her any more than she already is. And her brother who is fine but is so worried about her. But I cannot see any light at the end. And I am so very very scared. Thank you for listening.
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Hi jc707, I wanted to say how sorry I am that your daughter is going through such a horrible time and so are you. My daughter is 13 and going through a very anxious and depressed time and I constantly worry about this scenario. However, she and I talk about suicide in that she knows people do it and some young people. She has talked about self-harming but never done it. I know that despite her sometimes furious anger at me, her dark moods and here massive panic attacks, the fact that she feels she can talk to me about anything helps here enormously. Yes she is also seeing a professional and we may go down the medication path because I don't know what else is going to help at present. But I feel for both of you. Just keep giving her the love you have and listening to everything she says - even if it is repetitious and even if she doesn't want an answer. I'm learning that sometimes my daughter just wants to say stuff without me trying to 'fix' it or come back with anything. She just wants me to listen. I'm sure you already do that because you sound like a great Dad. You are not alone although I know it feels like it. Keep talking to us here because we all need to that support and kind words at a time like this. I am thinking of you both and I really hope things improve. Warmest wishes.
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