Hi @George96 ,    My heart really goes out for you reading this post- it sounds like you and your little one have both been through a lot in the last 12 days, it sounds like an incredibly challenging period. I'm a mum of 2 myself, and I know how hard the early weeks can be even without those kinds of complications...  a 21 months is a delightful but sometimes very challenging age as well! It is completely understandable that you'd be feeling drained and exhausted.  You say that you feel like reaching out to your doctor is admitting defeat - I think it actually shows a huge amount of strength and courage.    I thought this program might also be something that you could find helpful - the Gidget Foundation specialise in perinatal mental health and anxiety, and they offer a video counselling service called Start Talking - it's free with a GP referral and lasts for 10 sessions, I've just linked you to some info here in case you'd like to check it out.    Do you have any friends or family that can give you some practical help when your partner goes back to work? Sometimes even having a few frozen meals that you can throw in the microwave, or someone to take the baby for a walk so you can nap can make a huge difference.       Thinking of you- you sound like a strong and loving mum, and there is absolutely no shame in asking for help when you need it   ... View more