Hi @Kokobear23
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and for reaching out to get some support. It sounds like you've been through so much, and I firstly wanted to say well done for being such a great mother and looking after your daughter on your own all this time. It's also amazing to hear that you reached out to her father to try to reconnect them, I imagine this would've taken a lot of emotional energy for you to do. It's really commendable and something I hope you feel really proud of yourself for.
I actually had a very similar situation happen to me when I was growing up - my parents split up when I was a toddler due to my dad's alcoholism, he moved away and had no contact and then he passed away very suddenly when I was 11. So I can definitely empathise with your daughter. I was much the same and kept a lot of what I was feeling inside - for me, I think it would've been easier to talk about if my mum had brought it up more. I understand that can be really hard to do, because I imagine it's a really traumatic thing for you to talk about as well. So I think finding a way to do that in a way that is safe for both of you is important, if you decided to open up that conversation a bit more and more regularly.
Ultimately, it is completely up to you how you handle this and what/how you decide to tell your daughter. Drawing from my own experience, my mum told me as soon as she found out that my dad had died and I really appreciated that honesty. Dealing with a family member dying is always difficult, but dealing with one you didn't even know, adds a whole other aspect of grief to it. So if you decide to tell your daughter, it might be good to make sure you both have some supports in place to go through that with. Whether that be friends, other family members, your GP/psychologist/therapist, or all of the above. We have a couple of articles that might be helpful for your daughter if you decided to tell her, here and here.
How are you feeling about potentially broaching the subject with her? If you were in her shoes, do you think you would rather know the truth?
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