I feel so sorry for your situation.  It sounds very similar to my past situation.  I know exactly how you are feeling, but do try and concentrate on daily routines, and also to take time out for yourself, to recover and acclimatise to the situation. My daughter recently took her own life at the age of 45, one of at least seven or eight attempts which left us absolutely traumatised every time, least of all because she had a daughter, so we were left to care for her.  The attempts were preceded by consumption of alcohol but she always made sure she had someone on call to contact. This resulted in hospital to have her stomach pumped, and visits to mental facilities.  This went on for many years, with her being abusive to us on many levels.  The last time she wasn’t found as her partner didn’t wake up to find her.  We had to cut contact some years ago as we had to care for her daughter and decided we could not keep going through the heartbreak.  Please, please do make it clear to your daughter that what she does is her decision, and does not reflect on your care.  Suicide is a difficult thing for your loved ones, but at the end of the day she is responsible for her actions, and you must protect your own health. ... View more