Dear @Mazza10
Wow! I can understand why you're in shock. That's a lot to be dealing with. It sounds like there are several things that are deterring you from having another baby right now, but you're also hesitant about terminating.
I've personally never been through this but I imagine it would be a difficult decision. Have you considered writing a pros and cons list? They sound incredibly simple but can be really helpful when making big decisions such as these.
It might be worth speaking to a doctor and talking about what is involved in terminating the pregnancy, when you would need to do things by, etc. There's no harm in having the conversation, and it may actually help you with your decision.
It might also be helpful to talk with a trusted, unbiased friend or family about what you're going through. Sometimes talking aloud about things can make our preferred choice clearer.
It's unfortunate that you view your partner as irresponsible and selfish, that you are not on great terms, and that this is causing your stress and anxiety. That definitely makes this whole process more difficult.
Moved:
