Hello @chasingrainbows, I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. It sounds like things have been very tough for you. It is good that you have been receiving some support from your family throughout these difficult times. Feeling like you are losing your compass as a mother must be very difficult to go through. It is really great that you have reached out for support and assistance here on the forums. You mentioned in your other post that you have taken your daughter's phone away whilst she is sleeping, does that mean that your daughter is safe at the moment?
It must be really hard to hear that your daughter has pushed others away and only connects with her friends. Has she received any support previously? You mentioned that she had attempted suicide and has been self-harming, has she had any professional supports following this? If she is not currently seeing any professionals but would like to talk to someone about what she has been going through, there are services like Headspace and Kids Helpline that offer telephone and online counselling sessions that she might find to be helpful.
If you also wanted to talk with a counsellor about what you are going through, Parentline offers free and confidential telephone counselling for parents and carers. I hope these are helpful 
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