Hi @Kamm44  Thank you for letting us know that you're not going to harm yourself. I can see the wonderful amount of love that you have for your children, and that your profile picture is the ever-protective momma-bear so it clearly suits you well  Please don't feel that you have to tolerate the BS text messages, it's not ok for anyone to treat you like that, and you do have the option of going to your local police about it. Same for your 13 and 17yr old, it's really unfortunate that they have to have the exit strategy of driving away. Would your 13yr old know and be comfortable calling local emergency services if they had to while staying with your ex? With your 16yr old son, has his therapist given you any resources to help support if that mood rating does change? Please don't hesitate to contact your local emergency services if it does, to ensure he stays safe. I can understand why you would be feeling depleted and lonely, you've clearly been through a lot and have carried this all on your own shoulders, it makes sense that you would be feeling weighed down. Are you able to take a little time for yourself for some self-care, even if its a short walk after dinner? I will send you an email shortly with some resource info (please check your spam folder if you don't see it). Take care of yourself, and please keep us posted how you're progressing  ... View more