Seeking advice, I have 2 children to my ex 15 and 13. He was abusive and controlling through out our 10 year relationship.we separated and divorced 10 years ago. After staying single,building a career and building our forever home ,I found someone and married a few years later and had a baby. My ex has always been controlling and once found out I was pregnant he staying saying stuff to our children like that baby isn’t your sibling, it’s not your blood ect and things got worse after our baby was born. Our baby was born with a rare genetic condition and has been sick and my ex would say stuff to the kids like he is retarted, I only love him and anything else you can imagine he said. Each time I sat down with my children and explained this isn’t the case and tried to put things in place to prevent this. We shared 50/50 with the children and he started picking them up on my days so I didn’t know where they were ect .when COVID hit we had to isolate as much as possible as our Bub is very high risk and my ex used that to say to the kids I won’t let them do anything and don’t love them. One day they came home after he picked them up on my day and walk in and said “mum you have 3 kids and you’re lazy and you should of picked us up” I let them know I just got home from picking them up but their dad picked them up without me knowing! At this point I’m holding our 7mo fb old and my daughter walks up and screams in his face I **bleep**en hate you...I said ok this is enough,you will not say you hate anyone in this house,my kids continued to say that they love their step brothers at their dads house but not their brother. I went in my room to calm down and cry and in the mean time they had packed up their bag and ran out where he was waiting and I haven’t seen them since(6 months ago) I have had abuse from my ex telling me to go kill myself and then from his gf. I started mediation and had to reschedule (my mum is terminally ill and was in hospital) I got abused by the gf for changing the appt. I had the appt approx 2 weeks later, they both refused all contact (for no reason) said a visit to my dying Mum may be possible) nothing has happened and then got a abusive letter in my mail box from my daughter saying I shouldn’t be doing mediation. He has changed everything so I can’t contact them and only have their email.I have sent calm,loving open emails with no response, I have sent once soul breaking email with no response and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know how to reach my children who are completely broken because of their father ... View more