It's really nice to have this forum and just let out all my feelings, my hurt, my frustration, my anger, my better days, my everything. Thank you all for listening and sharing. I saw my therapist yesterday who is bloody awesome so my headspace is much more positive today. My daughter out of anger for me setting new house rules at my parents house decided to get in touch with her father, after not seeing him since we got thrown out 2 1/2 months ago (I'm still so **bleep** angry about this, being thrown out of my own house that i equally own) . At first I was very hurt because I felt she was seeking vengeance. But to be honest, having her stay with her father a couple of days a week has given her the space she needs, as well as given some relief to myself, my son and my parents. I know it sounds aweful but the impact she has on everyone here is toxic when she gets in her crazy outbursts. Going out with my friends to escape my hardship is also helping me keep sane. So, if anyone is going through a difficult time in their life, please make sure you don't do it alone. Talk to someonene and PLEASE take time for yourself. It really does help. I'm a great example of this because in the past I would recluse, not answer the phone and not talk to anyone and that's when you really feel alone and depressed. I promised myself i would make time for me, so my children see that I am strong, that seeing a therapist is not a bad thing and that I can deal and overcome problems and come out the other end happy, at peace and well balanced. I have a very a long way to go but I will never give up on myself or my children. Whatever obstacles life throws my way, and boy, I've had a hell of a lot in my years (sexual abuse, physical abuse, verbal and mental abuse) I will fight them. Please, never give up on yourself or your family!
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