My kids are 13, 12 and 10, i have boy, girl, boy.    They are all diagnosed with ASD/ADHD and it's a challenge every day, i love them all so much but sometimes i get so upset that i don't have *neurotypical kids* I've always wanted a big family but had to stop at 3 because it's just not mentally possible for myself or husband to have any more kids.   I found this forum today because I'm having an extremely hard day coming to terms with the fact that my youngest is now double digits :( I feel like I've lost a bit of myself and i don't like feeling this way.    I know this doesn't answer all those questions but i don't really have answers for them, im always stressed, hubby and i have not had a night alone in over 13 years and my mental health sucks.      ... View more