I'm in need of support, I desperately need someone to hear me. I feel lost, lonely and completely guideless in a world I have no experience. I need more support than advice, so please be kind. My 16 yo was diagnosed with anxious depression a year ago. School called me because he told he had suicidal ideations, and he wasn't delivering a single homework or assignment task. Mind you this kid is very academically talented. I did everything I could. I called dozens of places to find him a psychologist in less than 2 months, a psychiatrist, we contacted school support, I called every single school department, I created all this support network around him. And since then, he consistently lie. Just lie, every single day that he's doing homework, that everything is fine. There were about a DOZEN TIMES since then we discovered he just refuses to do anything because 'he doesn't see the point'. He's now saying that he doesn't ever want to work, because it's too much effort and he prefers to be homeless and die. He doesn't try to improve. He doesn't try to do any homework. He doesn't try to do anything that brings joy. He doesn't attempt to do absolutely anything. Anything. A year of lies. A year of emotional labour to micromanage every single school task. A year. He submitted an EMPTY assignment, just to persist on the lie. He doesn't seem to care about me, about his brother, about anyone. He says he likes being grounded, but then he just spend the whole school day (remote) on youtube. He came up with the idea that inside his head there are 16 different 'goblins', each one with a personality, gender, and wants. And every decision and sentence he just blame the **bleep** goblins. No accountability. No responsibility. He just doesn't do anything. He doesn't cry. He doesn't express a single emotion. Yes, he's on medication this whole time. But he continues to lie about his symptoms. I just cannot cope with such disrespect anymore. I've been just crying myself to sleep so often that I don't know what to do. He has weekly appointment with the psychologist, but his psychologist mostly ignores me. I asked for resources, I got no answers. I asked to setup a meeting (I've pay for it) between the psychologist and the school counselor, and he ignored me. Is this normal? Shouldn't they behave like a primary mental health driver and connect all the dots? The school is clueless on what to do, and they are incapable of realising that YET AGAIN he's refusing to do engage on any classes or do any homework. I'm lost. Should I question the diagnosis? Should I change the psychologist? Is this goblin thing normal? Does anyone have a kid that just want to make real bad decisions until they are punished, and keep on saying they are happy in this miserable state? At what point do I get him to a mental facility? Can I get support? Can I get guidance? Anything please. I'm really trying, but no one is helping me. This kid is making my life a nightmare.
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