Thank you for sharing this with us @cinnamonspice    It sounds like what you are going through is very difficult at the moment and we're glad that you can talk about it here. I am sorry to hear about the hardships in your relationship with your son. It's a complicated position for you to be in right now, considering your location, financial situation, and the court.    I was wondering if you could seek legal advice about the custody schedule. I've seen that you're from the US and I want to let you know that there are leg al aid offices  throughout the States. Legal aid offices are not-for-profit agencies that provide free legal help to people who cannot afford to hire a lawyer. They can help with family law, such as child custody.  Legal aid lawyers have the same qualifications as other lawyers.  Everything you say to your lawyer is  confidential , which means that it is not shared with anyone outside of the legal aid office. You can find out more here. I also want to check in and make sure that you are also supporting yourself during this difficult time. Do you have any supports for yourself? (e.g. friends, other family or professional support). If you would like other supports, I would recommend calling one of these helplines for mental health help.   There are many members of our community that have been through similar experiences. You are not alone and we're glad that you're here. ... View more