I don't even know where to begin, or what to say.  First off, my almost 16 year old is so fantastic, cool, loving, and my world.   He has always suffered from axiety and perfectionism for as long as his dad and I can think of.  Even as a toddler we couldn't change their bedroom around without an anxiety attack.  In the summer he was diagnosed with high anxiety, we started meds and they seemed to help(but also came suicidal thoughts)...fast forward, he starts High school, comes out as non-Binary and a lesbian(oh cool, dad and I are on board, just keep being a good person), complete change in looks, no worries, then he comes to us and says that he is trans- again, awesome, we love you, keep being a good person.  he seems very comfortable as a male, we thought things were looking fantastic, but now I can not recognize him- I mean mentally.  Since December he started to self harm, he trying to steal some wine that we had sitting in our basement that we had bought for a gift(we don't even drink), everything he says seems to be him needing or wanting a reaction, he says he can not feel anything, and just wants to feel.  We tried a couple of psychologists and he wouldn't open up but he said that he is open to talking now, and we found a new person and I am praying that it helps.   He had such a stable household- Dad and I have been very happy for 23 years together, we are always laughing as a family, he rarely sees any conflict, we have open communication, I run a dayhome so that I could be here for my kids when they needed me,  I'm lost as to what I have done wrong, I am so far from perfect but man, this kid has been loved, and shown love.  He was isolated from friends and school during covid restrictions( for 1.5 years) and I know that is a good portion of where it comes from) Anyways, I was having a pity party- all i want is for my kid to be happy, and healthy, and ready to live life.  My heart just hurts for him Thanks for letting me get this out ... View more