06-28-2018 06:15 PM
06-29-2018 03:54 AM
I have started a new job and we have 6 weeks of classroom training (there are 5 of us in the class). After the 6 weeks and we go "Live" actually doing the job, we have supportive training also. We have been told that we will be working for the company for about one year before we truly know everything we need to know. Today I just wanted to throw the towel in!!! I am 51 years old and the others are 19, 22, 24, and 25 and I feel I am not picking up the computer systems as quickly as them. I dont feel I am doing as well as them and we have only come to the end of week 4 and already I am feeling "not good enough". My old employer treated me very badly and for years I have had no confidence and am trying really hard to claw this back. I thought having this new job, it would give me MORE confidence but I feel it is having the opposite effect and is in actual fact taking more of what I have left. I do want to keep going but finding it really tough!!
Reading these mantras this morning helped me in a way but I need to find a way of keeping on repeating them. I dont know if I am kidding myself on or if I can really do it.
Sorry this is going on and on and on and on!!!
Tomorrow is another day I suppose!!
Thanks for listening!!
06-29-2018 07:08 AM
06-29-2018 12:32 PM
@seekwisdom glad to hear this discussion is helpful!
@Ashestogolddust I love the positive self-talk - so important on those tough days as you say. Your kids might think you're crazy now - but I bet they will probably use their own self-talk in the future after seeing your example.
It can be a challenge to incorporate positive self-talk, or mantras (whatever we want to call it!) into everyday life and make it regular.
Something that I'm going to try is sticking a positive affirmation on my mirror that I use to get ready each morning. That way I can't miss it!
Also having one in the car, or in your calendar can be a good reminder too.
06-29-2018 12:38 PM
@Madmacca - I'm so glad reading these mantras was helpful for you.
As @Ashestogolddust has said, keep going!! That feeling of not being "good enough", is an awful one - and not easy to get rid of. Stick at it, show up each day, and your confidence should continue to increase. Most of everything we do is just showing up in the first place!
The old "fake it till you make it" can actually really help in situations where you feel like you can't do something!
Perhaps you could choose one mantra to say to yourself each day on your way to work/ training to shift your mindset before you start?
06-29-2018 02:51 PM
This sounds wonderful! I started back on the anti depressants 2 days ago I was on a roller coaster of emotions..... I will definitely try positive affirmations... when you feel your drowning and not quite able to reach the water surface! I'm going to tell myself you can do this! Your strong!
06-29-2018 04:52 PM
@Sallyanne - going on or off medications can be a very bumpy ride indeed! I'm sorry to hear things have been so rough
I love that mantra: I'm strong.
So simple, but very true, and profound. It's a really good one for when you feel just the opposite!
If you'd like, let us know how you go with saying it regularly and if it's helpful - I'd love to hear.