Hi there @Nicole , welcome to the Parents RO forum - really glad you found us here.
My heart goes out to you - I can only imagine how distressing it must have been to find that drawing, and see the videos your son was watching relating to suicide methods.
It is concerning that he has looked those things up.
You absolutely did the right thing in addressing it with him directly, and asking him if he had thoughts of suicide. Even if you feel he wasn't honest in his response to you, he now knows that you are a safe person for him to speak to. Its great he able to open up to you about feeling down about his recent diagnosis. Health diagnosis can really hit young people hard, and many experience a process of grief after hearing news such as that.
Do you think he would open up to someone else about his feelings? Another family member - sibling, teacher , school counsellor perhaps? I think it's important that he gets an opportunity to explore what's going on for him with a support person. If he has any close friends, it could be a good idea to encourage him to spend more time with them at the moment too.
You know your son best, and if you think he would respond well to a nudge in the right direction, perhaps thats what's needed?
If you are wanting someone to talk to about this a bit more - you can call the Parent Line for free professional support 8am - 10pm on 1300 30 1300. They should be able to talk it through with you, offer you some support, and some communication strategies.
We also have some info over here on how to talk about suicide and on suicide prevention strategies for parents of teens.
If you have any reason to think he is at immediate risk of harm, you may need to put more things in place for his safety. Please let us know how you are, and how your son is. We're here to chat- many other parents on this forum have been through very similar things and have gotten through the other side. You are not alone!
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