Cathartic is a fine way of putting it. It was relaxing to put my emotions into words. I'm just really worried for my son. Kids can be hellishly mean, especially to an 'outsider'. We had lived with a Welsh lady across our flat and I think she had a heavy influence on my son's accent since she would watch over him most of the time when I had to do waitress gigs while juggling my remote job. Now that I begin to type this, you're right. I've been juggling things for the longest time. I try to be a "dad" to my son by playing with him and doing the things he likes... but he has always gotten the exhausted version of me. In terms of going better, I'm reassured that my parents are in terrific health and condition. Another bit would be me enjoying my college classes. I feel like I was able to digest what I was feeling and put it out here on the internet just because of my philosophy and understanding of the self classes. I'm not really sure if he even plays Minecraft anymore. What are kids in Years 8-10 into nowadays? God, I feel old. Good shout on Parentline, will definitely check it out. Appreciate the beautiful response @TOM-RO ! Many many many (and many more manys, hah) thanks!
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I've been referred to by a professor on this forum. Let me give you a brief description of my situation.
I am 34 years old. I previously finished online certifications and an associate's with UX/UI development and other programming languages. I'm currently working with a company based in Quebec but I'm still in Au doing remote work.
in 2008 I had broken up an abusive relationship with my ex but carried a little bit of him with me (hah). I've told him about the child but the man is still a bum and wants nothing to do with us. So it's just me and my son.
My son and I were in London for a decade, but when the pandemic hit he and I had needed to go back home because I was an only daughter and my parents were at high risk of covid. Both Au and London were hit pretty badly because of covid too.
I had reconnected with a favorite professor in college sometime during the quarantine, and she had suggested I continue my studies in behavioral sciences (my original degree before I shifted) since everything is online and I just needed a few semesters in. I had said yes and here we are.
My son is really suffering through the transition right now, which I completely understand. I had taken him away from his comfort zone with his friends and had thrown him into a new environment altogether. It also doesn't help that the weather difference between London and Au is drastic in terms of humidity and temperature–he's getting sick far too often these past few weeks.
We were really close back in London–I had driven him to his soccer games and even played Minecraft with him from time to time but everything had changed when we moved to Au. What with the situation with my parents and everything.
I'm also juggling a ton on my plate too but I'm experiencing a sinking feeling of guilt for not giving him the attention that he deserves. Physical classes have resumed in Sydney and I'm not even sure if he has made any friends yet.
My WFH set-up is also nowhere near ideal. I have to tend to my Dad most of the time and it's just bringing me to a point where I feel like I've maximized whatever bit of energy I have as a student, an employee, and a daughter–and am failing miserably as a mum.
I don't know what was the entire point of my entire thread, I just needed a little breather from everything I guess and I don't really have any social media accounts. Any input regarding my situation on how I can better connect with my son is highly appreciated.
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Hi Paula, I'm also new to this forum but I'm a mother and college student taking up behavioral sciences.
Also, did you notice any other behaviour from your daughter? (i.e., sudden increase or decrease of weight in the past month).
In my experience, self-harm can be a method for seeking out attention from absentee parents or a domino effect of an ongoing psychological/mental illness.
I'm really sorry you're going through this, it's really tough and I wish nothing but the best for you and your daughter. Chin up Paula!
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