Thanks so much for taking the time and for the support. I actually do see a psychologist believe it or not. I don't find when I am in this headspace though that anything helps. I just really feel completely at a loss. My whole life I have always been about helping others and making sure everybody else is ok with no regard to how it affects me so now it is affecting me I feel so out of control I honestly feel I can go no further down. I have been put on some medication that is allowing me to get some sleep but I am so out of it during the day I cant stand it. I still have to work, I still have to try my best to parent. I don't want to be a bother to anybody to be honest. My psychologist wanted me to call my family whilst I was in her office last week because she knows I desperately need help and probably wont call otherwise. I didn't call and I haven't called I just cant its just all too hard. They have enough of their own stuff going on they don't need my issues. I have got some hired help in place at home starting this week which might help ease things as when you are so emotionally drained nothing gets done and that gets us down even more. Thanks for listening it all helps.
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