Hi Sarah Jane, I read your post and felt as though you were writing my story so many things the same. My girl is still doing reckless things only 3 weeks ago her and another girl stole my car from the garage and drove it 3 hours away and crashed it thankfully no one was hurt but my car was a wreck and wrote off. I have a new car but now I sleep with my car keys under me. I don’t know what this ends and I try and be sympathetic to her behaviour but it is so hard. She has been missing for 48 hours she thankfully messaged me so I know she is safe but she is only 15 and very naive about many things. When she goes like this it is so hard to get her back because she is having fun doing drugs and god knows what. Luckily the police in my town are so good to me and always help me. She has gotten herself in trouble with the police and may possibly have to go to juvenile detention that scares me because the thought of her being locked up with be so hard on her. When I took her phone off her only a week ago she was like a caged animal so I don’t know how she will cope if she does get locked up. She started self harming after quite a few months of stopping so that is a huge worry. She says she doesn’t see a future so heartbreaking she is the most beautiful girl and sweet when that girl is her but I don’t see her very often. I want to get her help but she doesn’t seem to want to help I have heard about dialectic behaviour therapy but can’t seem to find anyone that does it around where I live. I am so sorry about your husband that is so very sad and your poor baby must really suffer. My daughters dad is non existent he is an alcoholic that doesn’t have much input in her life and his answer at the moment is give her a good slap well that isn’t going to work at all. I don’t know what is going to work I just want My girl to come home the longer she stays away the more scared I get. Sending love and hugs to you xo ... View more

Thanku Sister I do try and look for the positives and I find when she is doing ok so am I … mostly I suffer from Anxiety so it rears it’s ugly head at times when I’m feeling ok but that is anxiety. She is loving her job and working Good Friday in a fish shop lol she was flat out yesterday and got a good pay for her hard work. And she is a great worker they are so so impressed with her 😁 ... View more

Thanku Sister 😁 It is hard and I hope things will improve it’s so hard cause she has such great days and things have been pretty good the last couple of days but she has had long days working at a fish shop. And that gives me a bit of repreave and I can breath. The councillor we have is great and my girl likes her so that helps cause she had ones in the past that after her sessions we would end up at the hospital with her wanting to kill Hersel or she would self harm. We all just want our babies to grow up happy and safe. Thanku so much all you guys are helping more than you know. Is there an App for this site ? Thanks again x ... View more

Thanku I did think after I posted that I probably should not have said her name and I understand totally. We are seeing a Councilor when things are good they are great but things can change in a heart beat sometimes. I have a couple of good friends who I can talk to but when She disappears in the middle of the night I don’t like to disturb them. That is when I’m the loneliest and feel so helpless. I am so pleased I found this site and the support is amazing. Thanku so much ... View more

Thanku for your kind message Schooner, my girl has done some silly things when she has snuck out like at the age of 14 she went to peoples house that I didn’t know smoked Pot drank alcohol so now I don’t trust her she lies so easily … is this part of BPD ? She says when she sneaks outb in the night that she just wants to walk and clear her head but sadly I don’t know if I trust her. She has snuck out and met older boys to get smokes and she doesn’t see the danger … one night she met a guy to get smokes that she paid twice as much money for and said there were 5 guys in the car… that just terrifies me she just doesn’t see the danger. And the other night when she was gone for 4 hours she says she was just walking in the Bush… I want to believe her but I don’t know this child who is not scared of the dark and scared of what could happen to her. One time I locked the garage door with the key thinking she can’t get out that way … she got a screw driver and took the lock out. This is a kid that I didn’t think she could do it never mind thinking of doing it. She cut the fly screen on her window now says she just walks out the glass sliding door. Sometimes I can make her sleep With me which she used to do nearly every night until about 8 Months ago. Sorry this is so long I just don’t know what to do I am a single Mum so it’s just my daughter and me. She was sexually assaulted 3 years ago by her older nephew/ my grandson he denied it and this is part of her problem and this has also seperate my family I now have two gwown up kids that don’t talk to me anymore cause they think we are lying about it so it’s hard. I feel lost and very lonely. Her Dad doesn’t have much do do with her either he is an alcoholic I left him when my daughter was 2 so she misses not having a dad that actually cares for her. ☹️ ... View more

Thank you I haven’t had much of a chance to read much as yet but will plod along. My daughter has been good she worked today so when she is there I can take a breath cause I know she is safe. There is so many things that go through my head … Thankyou all so much it’s good to know I’m not alone 😁 ... View more

Thanku all So much yes she after ignoring me for hours and being nasty rings me at 5.30 and says can you pick me up. It is so hard when she is nice she is so sweet but when the **bleep** one comes out I don’t know he. I received a book I ordered called “Walking on Egg Shells” I just don’t know how to deal with this and I get told by friends and others don’t pick her up let her go … how !!! Do I stop being a Mum I can’t as she is still my Baby. I am 57 and I feel like is this how my last years with Emily still at home going to be ☹️☹️ Anyway today is a new day and she has been good she said sorry not that it feels like much I have to Hope my sweet little girl is still in there. Thanku so much for you lovely comments I appreciate it so much xo ... View more