Hi @George96, I can imagine that this would have been a bit difficult for you to share, so I really appreciate you talking about what's going on for you right now
It sounds like things are really overwhelming and exhausting for you right now, and I can only imagine that this would be amplified not only from the fact that you've only recently given birth, but also that your partner is going back to work. I can also imagine that feelings of guilt and shame around feeling this way could also be making things worse as well.
While I definitely can't make any sort of diagnosis, I would really advocate you to speak to your doctor, as it sounds like you may be experiencing some symptoms of postnatal depression. This is something that is extremely normal among new mothers, and 1 in 9 people will experience postpartum depression. It's something that can without a doubt make you feel isolated, hopeless, and empty, but there is help available I noticed that your IP is from Adelaide, so I've checked some of the services that might be relevant for you. I believe that there is a Postnatal Midwifery home visiting service for those who have recently given birth. Another really fantastic resource is PANDA which is an Australian organisation which specialises in giving support to parents and families experiencing anxiety and depression during and the first year after pregnancy. They also have a hotline that operates Mon-Sat, 9am-7:30pm AEST
I really hope this information helps at all, but please don't be afraid to let us know how you're feeling and to check back in at any time
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